It's been a while.....Luke's Day....

Eighth year....seems like yesterday. I have learned so much from that single day. I'll try to share something each year. Luke died in the morning and  I helped wash his body. We left very soon after we said our goodbyes. We cleared our locker out, got our kitchen items and packed the car. It seemed so strange saying goodbye to other families still in their struggle. I was leaving their world , my world......We went to the house we were renting and got all the stuff. Packed the car and had breakfast with the Rubins and said our bittersweet goodbyes. How strange how paths cross and God uses people to help other people. We could never repay them for all they did. I pray God will not forget one thing. We went to the phone store to discontinue our cell phone service. The lady was really perky...."Good Morning. How are you!" I couldnt believe how cold I was. "Not so well, My son just died". You know I didnt even care about the shock she must have felt. Later I have thought how cold that was and was sorry. We left and had to stop at Target on our way out of town to get nylons for the funeral. (No place to buy nylon within an hour from Hebron).  As I walked into the store I was in shock. I was like a zombie. I remember walking by people and I seemed to be transparent to them. I wanted to yell "my son just died" but no words came out and people just went about their lives.. mine had nged forever....That experience has made me realize that as we walk through life in our daily shopping etc. their are many people in the same or similar situations: loss of a loved one (parent, child, friend), perhaps they have been fired, run away, feel unloved, been beaten up physically or mentally by a spouse, been sexually abused, feel regretfull for actions, been diagnoised with a disease or cancer...this world is full of hurting people. They all look like you and me. I now try to really look at people and try to be tender to them in any way I can. Not perky but tender....This lesson has changed me forever.